Sadness..

my 1st sem results are out today... it's only just pass midnight not long ago but alot ppl already asking abt results.. ya... just as i expected...it is really very bad... i am really disappointed.. the feelings that i dun wish to feel just suddenly come back to me... chest tight.. breathing difficulty... unbearable sadness... pain... worries... arhhhhhh........

But i can only blame myself... haiz

All the best

to your results...

A day to remember....

Today will have been a double occassion if everything have been the same... We, Chinese celebrate our important day known as "dong zhi" which means that a day for our loved ones to get together and enjoy each other company... we should gather around and have "tang yuan"... It is a tradition that we should eat the no of "tang yuan" according to our age... i guess it is really meaningful ba...

It is also the day that i will have celebrate my "dong zhi" with the one i love other than my family. It's just coincident that today marks our 4th anniversary if eveything had been the same. Actually.. i should say that it is not just 4 years of love... It should have been more if things did not turn out unexpectedlyduring that time... But it really doesnt matter anymore... Sometimes, thing just can happen again... I can only blame myself for it... haiz... Other than the few years of relationship together, i guess what it really matter to me is the close to 9 years of friendship ba...

I see you are happy le...

Guess it had been a while since you read my blog le... it was supposely meant for you.. and we suppose to have one together.. but i dun think it matters anymore...

I believe you must have been enjoying yourself lately... good for you.. we been together so long and i guess its really now that u seem to have enjoy and live ur day to the fullest ba... i hope you have find wat you are looking for... and i hope he treats you well...

hmm.. actually no point saying so much.. no one will know wat i write on this blog... it's just for myself ba i guess.. but by writing here at least it make me feel slightly better.. haiz...

good nitez..

也许时间是一种考验...

习惯就好了...

S.O.S

I am really sick of it...

WAT SHOULD I DO???

Haiz...

i hate myself....

我好想念你

我没有放弃 也不会离你而去 哪怕要分开 我依然等你
我全心全意 等你的消息 终会有一天 你会相信我

我爱你

一场雨 想念你 在我的 心中都不可比拟
你走后 什么都 已经消失在风雨里

一场雨 想念你 我爱你 我爱你 ……

Baby galz..

i will always be here for you if you need me...

All the best to you....

Good luck to your exams.... do well for it.. dun be so stressed...

hope that u are not sick le... coughing can be serious... but think u wun serious till cough till intestine bleeds ba... scary lor... sayang...

miss you...

Take care my girl...

haiz... always exams period u fall sick... please take gd care of yourself ba.. hope you recover soon and all the best to your exams...

Sadness

Whenever i am troubled, i know you will always be there whom can make me feel better... you share my happiness and sorrow.. but now...

it has been a while... i am feeling the loneliness... i have no one whom i can share my feelings le... Recently feeling troubled with so much things really make me feel so exhausted... Having so much things to say yet i cant bring myself to confide to others..

21 Nov...

Happy annivesary to the one i love... take care...

i'll just be an angel...

Silly girl.. do take gd care of yourself... hope u dun catch a cold...

To think that...

one can actually cough till intestine bleeds.. haiz...

And have i really become thinner? my dad says so...

To think that i dream...

and i cry...

i dunno wat my mind is thinking...

To be or not to be...

How to be...

Am i able to be...

So what i am to be...

Alone for good...

好想... 好想...

Lost

It is definitely so hard to forget someone that has been always there.. i try and try.. but every morning the first thing it comes to my mind is still her.. it makes my heart bleeds... it make my mind numb... i just want to cry yet i couldnt find tears.. i tell myself it's over le.. she no longer have the same feelings for me but i dunno why i still cant bear to let go... so what i love her so much? Can she feels it? Does she needs it?

All these years of friendship and love, i cant just leave it to become memories.. they are memories that leave me with so much of unwantedness... i longed to be with her... yet she has already given me up.. i asked myself every morning.. what exactly has happened? what caused the end of this relationship? i put the blame on myself.. i put the blame on her.. but in the end, the feeings i got is not guilty for not being gd enough for her or even hatred for her for giving me up. What i felt is always the heartbroken feeling.. the sadness.. the unbearable pain of losing someone.. it is such a terrible feeling that i have to force myself to bear with it... i wish i can cry out... i wish that cry will make me feel better even if it's just temporaily. But i cant cry.. i forced myself again and again... i just dun seem to be able to let out everything..

i dunno how many more mornings that i have to face with the same thoughts and feelings again... it is something that is unavoidable even if i wan to. i dunno how much longer i have to hold on even if i know i must..

i need to be alone.. i try to shut myself up... nv go sch.. nv study... nv bother abt those who have been concern abt me.. bing qiang called and msg alot of times... jl called me as well... but i just told them that i need to be alone.. i dun think i am able to face them for now... cos everytime i see them, i may not be able to hold back my feelings and start to tell them abt my sadness. All these only caused them to feel worried abt me.. i really need to learn to keep my feelings to myself... No point adding to another person's misery since it's my problem...

i guess... i will be all right soon...

haiz

i am truly hurt... but wish you all the best...

Dun feel well

need to be left alone....

ARGH.........

I HATE MYSELF.... I HATE MYSELF... I REALLY HATE MYSELF!!!

Day 2

Headache... i need sleep.. shld take a break le..

Day 1

Eating is definitely a gd way to run away from problems... but dun overeat till feel like puking... it just feel terrible...

guess i am holding back...Yet...some things are already beyond my grasp... hope you are happy now..

haiz... i'm lost...

heartbroken...

i always thought that i can give her the best.. but after so many years together i know she no longer need me now le.. she have learnt to lead a life without me.. it's really time that i let her go even if i got so much of unwillingness... so much of feelings left for her... so much of wanting her to be my side..

Thinking back, i really dunno wat i have done for her... how often i have her happy.. it's just like she is actually suffering more than she is being happy... i dun seem to have done enough for her..
i am just not gd enough for her...

All the years of love suddenly need to change to friendship.. i dunno how to accept it yet... i know i still love her alot.. i still care for her alot.. i shld stay by her side.. to be there for her when she needs me.. but how am i suppose to face her? it just need alot of time for me to heal... wat shld i do?

Promises are meant to be kept and fulfill... i tot i can keep my promise that i will love her forever but i guess i wun have the chance anymore...

i love you too much to make you stay... baby fly away...

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v644/hayden-clone/kh-waiting-main.jpg

i dunno how long i can hold on...

Am i becoming less significant to you? ya still need me anot? i want the ans...

do take care...

if really feel so tired... stay home and rest...

it's not good to fall sick at tis time of the year.. take care...

I guess.....

i dun belong to any group....

A long way ahead....

It's no longer the same... but i know wat i am doing...

Just hope u can spend more time with me...haiz

simply love it...

冲动

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动 不确定你属于我会有点寂寞 你给的幸福在我心中 自由走动 抚平我每一个伤口 忍不住 想要吻你的冲动 不确定我的执着能让你感动 我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落 关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂...

Exams...

Studying, studying and studying... 3 more wks to exam le!!! sianz.. I also dunno if i can do well.. looking thr the past years papers really give me no confidence lor.. sob...

It's been a while since i last see her..... *pouts*

Am i selfish?

Saw her again.. it's the second time i saw her but i can recognise is her... she waits for bus 180 to come... i know what she's goin to do... i really dunno if i feel pity her or angry with her.. is she doing the right thing? is this the way she shld do?

she approaches me like the time before and i reply in the same way. haiz.. i really dunno if what shld i do... i feel bad yet i dun like the way it is.. hmm... mayb she really need help but i cant bring myself to help, even though we are taught to lend a helping hand to those who need help..

梦醒时分

The more u listen the better it feels... LOL


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Jay chou---稻香

It is really a very nice song...


稻香歌词对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨 跌倒了就不敢继续往前走 为什么人要这么的脆弱 堕落 请你打开电视看看 多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去 我们是不是该知足 珍惜一切 就算没有拥有 还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随著稻香河流继续奔跑 微微笑 小时候的梦我知道 不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠 回家吧 回到最初的美好 不要这麼容易就想放弃 就像我说的 追不到的梦想 换个梦不就得了 为自己的人生鲜艳上色 先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色 笑一个吧 功成名就不是目的 让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义 童年的纸飞机 现在终於飞回我手里 所谓的那快乐 赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了 偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了 谁在偷笑呢 我靠著稻草人吹著风唱著歌 睡著了 哦 哦 午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆 哦 哦 阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎 珍惜一切 就算没有拥有 ☆词/曲 周杰伦 编曲/林迈可☆还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随著稻香河流继续奔跑 微微笑 小时候的梦我知道 不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠 回家吧 回到最初的美好☆。

Happiness is wat i hope for

I knock my knee.. tot will be ok but when i move it's so pain lor... wah... sian...

hmmm.. i sometimes wonder am i good looking enough? wat is the definition of handsome? or cute? wat type of guys do girls see me as? Just an average looking guy? so is there anyone who ever have a crush for me?

Sometimes i do envious those guys who girls think are good looking... and there are times when i i hope to be one of the guys too.. cos to be liked by girls seem veri fortunate... haha... but i pity those those not so nice looking ppl... it seems like ppl have a mentaliy of not hanging out with them, making them feel lonely i guess... i admit i am one... but i do pity them out of the bottom of my heart... i also think that there is surely someone out there who will be ur partner for life... it's just a matter of time i guess, before getting a chance to meet them... it really all depend on fate..

i always liked being in a relationship.. i am really happy when i noe that there is someone for me... i love being together with the person.. i just dun wan to be alone and i cant imagine wat it will be like to be alone.. i wan happiness...

I am selfish...

I hate studying but i really have to bring myself to start focusing on studies le... abt one more month to exams liao yet i still dunno wat i am doing.. nothin much interesting to talk abt today... it's start of another wk in sch... another wk of slping in lectures and not completing of work...

Just bought a stack of past years exam papers today lor... electronics, math, java and econs... sian.. also dun think i will be doing much.. it's like waste of money..

Haiz.. i am a selfish person i guess... this mornin's incident really make me feel like one... but i really cant help not to be one lor.. see them all like mugging and study so hard really make me angry and lost... i dun wan to lose to them yet i cant stay focus...

stay focus!!!

i just cant bring myself to do it... grrr... concentrate pls....

Best Frens Forever...

#@$%$% I hate java...

Do java qns till 3 plus... wah... Super tiring sia....

hope tml can see ya.. take care.. hav a gd slp.. sweet dreams and slp tight... =)

because i am a girl - K.I.S.S.

F1 race is over... vroonzzzzzz..... bye bye!!! congra to Alonso for winning it....

Start of sch again after recess wk... Sianzzz.. haiz... wan to rest more but cant lor.. hav to start worrying abt homework, tests and exams again.... eeerrrr.. dread it!

hmm.. like this mtv very much... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=upMNeA0hcQc

Army days

Shi Yuan tat asshole.. block half of my handsome face.. luckily got the other tat can see the whole me.. hiak... photographer is Jackson's gf lor.. never get to post her pic.. haha.. too bad...

Bon voyage to you...

Meet my army frens at Raffles City's Ding Tai Feng today... it will be the farewell dinner for Junkai who will be going overseas to study..

Those who are presented are platoon 9 Hengq, Wilson, Joel, Kwan Siong and me... platoon 11 Gabriel, Junkai, Yanhong, Shi yuan and Jackson... and of cos dun forget Jackson's gf... erm.. forget her name liao.. haha

Actually the food at Ding Tai Feng is not very nice lor.. and quite expensive sia.. dun really like.. think the best is still the xiao long bao lor.. i order pork rib fried rice...a bit salty.. sian... Spend $202.30 altogether... can use the number buy 4D win le dinner dun need money.. haha..

Today my block's electricity is cut off.. wah.. dun have electricity is kind of jialat sia... can only study at home.. sian... hate schooling now...

hmm..got back my thing le.. so happy... hiak...

A long way ahead....

i wun let it remain half half lor.... at least half full shld be accomplished within half a year.... jia you....

To you...

Happy anniversary to the one i love.... Love ya always...

Sick

cough cough and cough... cough till like goin to have sore throat le.. sian..

Typical me..

Start of recess week le..

hope i can hav more rest...
hope i can go out with you...
hope i can enjoy...

Just my wishful thoughts...

lonely....

I just need more attention.. tat's all..

Sighz....

*sighz*

Mid autumn festival

How much do you miss the one you love..........

How much you longed to see the one you miss........

Today will be the day for your reunion.... to be with him or her...

miss the times we had together...

2 more day it will be mid autumn fesival day le.. a day which brings back wonderful memories for me... i will always remember the day when i celebrate with some of my sec sch frens... just by a big drain with sparklers and lanterns... enjoyin the atmosphere of the festival... having fun around.... i really miss the time i spend together with them... if i were to ask them out to celebrate the festival again, i guess sure got alot of ppl cant make it wan.. haiz.. life had change... everyone is busy now....

Thank you..

I am really glad that someone i know long ago still remember me.. it always brings some sweet old memories of mine back whenever i see someone i know long ago... hmm... So many years le.. i guess i have not change much ba... maybe just that i grow a bit thinner le ba...

I used to be quite fat last time.. Ppl will tease me and call me xiao pang... hmm.. but as i grow older, it seems that i have burned away much of my fats le.. Ppl dun tease me but instead they will look so surprised and said to me, " wah.. u really hav become thinner le... wat happened?"

Maybe time really can change someone.. change till others may not be able to recognise you... Just recently, i met this old pri sch fren of mine... she is standing right in front of me yet she dun recognise me.. but i nv called out to her cos i dunno wat to say.. imagine u call out to someone yet u dunno if he or she is really the person u know.. it will be so weird and paiseh if it turns out to be a mistake... But i am quite sure its her... guess i am just too shy ba...

i longed to see all my gd frens..i need their company by my side... they have share my happiness and sorrows with me all these while... i am really vey thankful to them all...

Thank you so much... my dearest frens....

need you...

Another tiring day in sch... haiz... hav been back to studying for abt a month le but still think i am getting nowhere... So stressed up over my studies now... just cant seem to focus well... ARHHHH.... fan si ren le....

Still having headache.... issit really cos i hav not been getting enough rest? i dunno.... feeling empty and lonely...

my personalilty test results...

It would appear that at this particular time of your life you are going through a tough time. You are feeling (or have recently felt) miserable and depressed and perhaps you are still feeling that way. Maybe all the trials and tribulations just aren't worth it. Your present anxieties could have been associated with either your 'private' or 'business' life - whatever ... what you really need at this time is to get away from it all, maybe a vacation - alone, or better still, perhaps with someone that you know really cares for you, someone who appreciates you - not for what you have but for who you are. A short vacation may be all you need to afford you the time to recover and to get back to your normal vital self.
You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from!
You feel truly deprived - not getting your fair share, but you have accepted the fact that that is the way things are at this time and that it is prudent to let matters slide and not hit your head against the wall -so conform and agree for a while. Accept the situation - nothing can last forever.
It would seem that an existing situation or relationship is unsatisfactory and you feel that there is little that you can do about it without 'some help from your friends', but you have no desire to show the world how vulnerable you really are and therefore you consider it inadvisable to display affection or be over demonstrative. You regard this particular relationship as a depressing tie and although you would like to be independent and unhampered, you don't want to run the risk of losing anything. All this leads you to react 'touchily' and with impatience, while the urge to 'get away from it all' results in considerable restlessness and stress. Your ability to concentrate may suffer.
You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

Touched by an angel...

It always make one feel better when he knows that there is someone out there who is very concern abt him... It may be a simple fren, or someone more than just a fren, or even someone that he loves... but no matter who the person is, he is really very gladful for wat the person had done for him...

I dunno wat's in ur mind... dunno how much i really meant to you.. but i know i wun get the ans that i wan... i am just waiting... waiting for something that may not happen... but it meant alot to me.... i hope to stay by ur side.. to be ur angel whom u will share ur happiness and sorrow with..

u can fly so high..keep ur gaze upon the sky...i'll be praying every step along the way.. even though it breaks my heart to know u'll be so far apart... i love you too much to make you stay.. baby fly away...

Sick boy

i am sick...quite sick to be true... a bad headache.. dry cough.. flu.. sensitive and blocked nose... and back pain.. haiz.... how i wish u are here for me.. to really take care of me...

hmm... still struggling hard in my studies.. haiz... can say i am not puttin effort ba.. really not keen in studying le...

also dunno wat is in my mind.... just trying hard to stop myself from thinking ba.... it only makes me feel worses sometimes... i dunnn wat she's thinking, wat she really meant in her blog... just dun think i shld ask her.... to make her feel sad..

work work and more work

hmm.. really dunno how to do my homework... and keep having slight headaches tis few days... yup... going slp soon.. nothin much to write cos busy with my sch work... look forward to wkend...

just dun feel well.....

Headache...nv slp well again....

i really dun wan feel tis way le... i am collapsing...

Probabilty And Stas... Java programming....

Today earlier in the morning dunno wat got into me... so nan de i nv play games and study lor.. haiz.. but i feel i am so weak in all my subjects... i am really trying very hard to study le... dun think too much den shld be quite ok ba i hope... haiz... hmmm.. if like that carry on also dunno how badly i will do in my exams.. Sianz...

Sighz.....

Hungry... wan to eat alot of things but like no appetite... haiz..

think falling sick soon..

I am losing myself...

If only i lose all my memories.. i will surely have feel better.. Forget all my unhappiness and start everythin afresh... I may forget you.. forget the happy memories that i have wih you.... forget that i once love you so much till i dunno wat i am becoming... but at least i noe u will hav feel better.. after all u wun be tight down by me.. u will hav the chance to be totally single again....

Happy Birthday dear...

A choc fudge cake from Angie the Choice, with the word "choc fudge" on it instead of Happy Birhtday to you... (and to realise how much i dunno abt you when i tot i know..)

A bouquet of 20 roses, 20 roses represent sincerity and 21 represent being committed to you... ( only 20 roses to you as the last one is myself..)

A beautiful sight of candles light on the carpark... (with the help of everyone to form the word HAPPY BDAY FEL..)

A cross stitched present, framed up and showing HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY to you.. (which i dunno spend how many hours doing.. somethin that i guess i wun do it again..)

A birthday card, which i think is really very nice and suitable for you.. (and of cos inside is full of rubbish that i hav written for you ba..)

Yup.... that is all for you for ur 21st birthday.. a day i hope u will never forget...

Sighz.....

Start of another wk in sch.... Sigh... this is already the fourth wk le but i still dunno wat i am doing.... i feel so lost in my studies.. i am so inferior in front of my frens... seem like they have already adapt to studying le and coping well with it, yet i am still far from that.... Am i putting enough effort in my studies? i doubt so... Haiz...

It always affect me so much whenever u are sick... i really dunno y i feel tis way even if i know it's just common flu, cough or sore throat... i feel so sad and angry with myself.. i have not been taking good care of you... haiz...

Haven been slping well lately... guess it will be over after tonight.... sigh...

Firework display..

Yesterday meet my GE colleagues again... so nice seeing them lor.. we went to Sizzler at Suntec.. Had a wonderful dinner with them... but feel so bad everytime they pay for me lor...

Went to see the fireworks display at esplanade... it is really veri nice.. hope can see it again next time... meet Li Juan and her kor.. haha.. turn out the kor not bad lor... too bad Li Juan dun like leh... she looking for one who ride a bike and can play piano.. lol.. oops.. i say too much..

hope u have a wonderful time at ur fren birthday party.. take care of urself lor...

Dun wan study...

Only got one lesson today cos sch having union day today.. super slack..

hmm.. dunno how to do my homework.. sianz.. i need help.. How come my free tutor not online? jialat le lor.. i very stupid...

hmmm.. hope everythin turns out well..

Unexpected visit..

is tat really her main reason for coming to ntu today?

but i am really very happy to see her... thanks for coming..

Thanks for being there....

I am really glad that there is a group of frens whom i can discuss my sch work with...Bing Qiang, Weiliang, Yong Ann, Jun Wei and Yun Sheun( dunno spell correctly anot)... i am going to need alot of help from them, esp from Bing Qiang.. He has really been a great help all this while.. if not for him i am surely lost now...

Workload is going to pile up very soon.. i must really study hard now.. hope i can have ur support.. and of cos ur care and concern... pls....?

But u must really take care of urself k? haiz... worried for you.. dun be too stressed up.. if got any problems must share with me lor.. dun keep to urself... even though i may not be able to solve ur prob, i believe i can at least make u feel better in a way ba..

Hope ur head is not painful le.. and hope u dun feel itchness le lor... Take lotsa care..

dun feel like goin anyway

dun feel like going out today. so stay at home to try finish up my work and her present.. yup..

so sorry nv go meet u all, my gd army frens.. hope u all dun mind.. next time ba.. although it may be quite long after but i believe we will meet sooner or later.. take care melvin.. hope u hav a gd time studyin overseas..

Falling sick

It looks like my cough is coming back again.. sianz

Lost...

i dunno where i am standing.. i dare not think too much..

My new laptop

Finally.. after so long got my first laptop le.. Toshiba protege M800.. same as hers but different color.. hers is cool pearl white while mine is mercury silver..

hmmm.. its so nice to hav a laptop lor.. hope i can learn more things now.. really need to chiong to do well in my studies.. hmm.. sad thing is i dun hav wireless connection lor.. its so complicated.. must think of a way now...

I am contented for now..

Still very lousy at driving lor.. can anyone tell me wat to do when i am making a turn? i still dunno the correct way..todday i learn parking.. hmm.. it seem quite complicated le.. hope after a few more lesson i can make it.. sian lor.. i am not gd at driving sia.. also dunno wat to do..

hmm.. i am really very happy whenever i am with her.. just dunno y i need her so much to be by my side.. she is gd to me now.. so much better.. i really hope it stay like this.. or even better... i dunno wat she's feeling now.. but i am still waiting.. i believe in her and i hope she believe in me too.. Luv ya..

Nv slp well..

Yday she bu shuang me.. it's my fault... haiz..

Dream abt her.. a weird dream.. hiak

Sch started le... hols are all over... so dreadful...

Pls take good care...=(

Mis ya alot.. tat's all i hav to say.. yup

My New Phone....

Bought a new phone yesterday.. Samsung F480.. one of the latest 3G phone.. it is a touch screen phone, meaning everythin is done by touching screen.. hmm.. i sure cant used to msging like tat but nvm.. i will try my best to learn.. haha.. the phone is quite cool lor.. 5 megapixel camera with a gd music player.. tis is wat i want lor.. hiak.. hope she like it too.. just dunno y i buy wat also will think of how she feel one.. haha.. $348.. hope it's worth it.. =)

Cute Yuan Shan

My cousin's daughter.. isn't she adorable? =)

Not used to it..

Just haven really adapt to uni life lor.. sian.. like so bored every day.. tis whole wk only got lectures but i already feel very tired.. hmm.. really haven get use to it..

i hope you can stay by my side.. take my hand and never let go... =p

For You

i just want to be with her.. tat's all... i dun wan her to be so stressed up... cheer up!!!! pls smile to me more...

I have done my best..

Ya.. i am really bu gan xin over everythin.. i just dun see ourselves with so much differences..
After so much i have say to you.. u actually say that u dun really have to listen to wat others say.. it breaks my heart...

i have done my best..

I am diggin my own grave..

when two person get together, learn to compromise is somethin tat is unavoidable.. no matter if it is accepting who the person is or even change for each other's sake.. it's still somethin tat one shld do.. there's no leopard that cant change its spots lor.. it's just whether u are willing anot.. i am really trying my very best to accept the way u are and even change for the better for ur sake.. but y cant u do the same for me? y must u think tat leopard cant change its spots, so u cant also..

haiz.. i know i am in no position to decide who she wan to go out with.. but she really make me so worried just now.. msg and call her many times yet she nv reply.. turns out she go watch movie which shld be consider scary movie tat she usually dun watch, and sit on the front row seats which she usually dun like.. haiz.. of cos i will be so angry with her.. i am thinkin whether she care abt my feelings tis way..

i shld give her more time to think.. yup.. she says i am always around giving her no time to think abt it..but this is somethin i also dun wan one..i am really scare next time wun hav so much time to be by her side le.. haiz.. i am really in a dilemma.. so is it tat i shld stay close by her side to let her know i am there waitng for her, or shld i stay away from her so tat she can feel the importance of my presence?

i shouted at her.. it really break my heart.. i dun mean it.. sorry..

Cinderella's story

Yday nv blog cos din noe that i will end up going clubbing at Clarke Quay... First time went to MOS.. haha.. tried tequila shot and tequila pop tis time.. wah.. i nv feel like head spinning lor.. seemed like i still can drink.. not so bad..

Dance for quite a long time.. at least a few hrs i think... dun really noe how to dance at first.. but after a while, still managed to dance a bit ba.. a little improvement.. haha.. luckily got the chance to dance with someone so pretty and sweet.. she's not a bad dancer by the way.. she dance till quite nice.. and she seemed quite high.. too bad she complained nv get to hear her fav song " LOW ".. i sing for her lah.. she wan can dance wih my music..

"Shawty had them Apple Bottom Jeans [Jeans]... Boots with the fur [With the fur]... The whole club was lookin at her... She hit the flo [She hit the flo]... Next thing you know... Shawty got low low low low low low low low... Them baggy sweat pants... And the Reeboks with the straps [With the straps]... She turned around and gave that big booty a smack [Ayy]... She hit the flo [She hit the flo]... Next thing you know... Shawty got low low low low low low low low"

haha.. happy? hmm.. enjoy ur dance.. next time can ask me out to dance again.. haha..

Cinderella"s story end at 12 midnight.. mine is much better le.. end at 4am.. haha.. it's so nice to be with a loving dancer partner.. too bad gd thing always come to an end... how i wish time can stop so tat everythin will not end so quickly..

Hmm... wonder when can i be in a cinderella's story again?? i'm really lookin forward to it..

Poor Thing..

I hate when she is not feeling well.. keep having headache is really not a gd sign lor.. if only i can help her suffer in her place..

hmm.. think i am still not veri gd in my driving.. today revise on the 3 point turning.. ok lah.. better den the previous lesson but still not as gd as i think i can be.. just need try harder ba..

Touched by the MTV

Just hoping u will msg me.. yup.. wat can i say...

mis ya.. take good care of urself..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jgnkud7oXhA a nice mtv..

if u are the guy will u do that for the girl u love?

Only you..

She so happy with herself now.. able to use laptop to go online le.. haiz.. i am so useless lor.. want help her but cant.. cos i really dunno anythin.. tat y she dun like me ba..

Got her new dress too.. bought from online.. hmm.. she is so excited over it.. she keep saying it is nice.. making me so eager to see her in tat dress.. if only she had wish to show it to me first....

Went NTU for my freshman welcome day.. try the nice ice cream from canteen 2.. yummy.. hmm.. Damn tiring day lor... if only got her to be around... really need her by my side..

i just cant seem to stop thinking abt her..

Singapore Garden Festival...

went to Singapore Garden Festival with her.. had an enjoyable time.. if only we can spend more time together lor...

she just bought a wireless router for her new laptop lor..so rich sia.. i haven got a laptop she got one liao.. but den she dunno how to fix up the router..i also dunno.. haha.. we both are noobies lor.. LOL..

she kanna step on the feet by a lady wearing heels.. Ouch!!! sure veri pain lor.. can only help her to rub.. so heart pain.. PIG!!! Mis ya..

mashimaro.. hamtaro.. handroll.. springroll.. rock & roll.. roll ur head

I'm lost...

Feeling lost and terrible... just need more attention..

btw, my uni timetable damn jialat..

I wan my sleep..

Nv slp well yesterday... thinking about you semi-consciously.. lol

IppT.....

Sianz.. goin to hav Ippt test today.. sure cant make it wan.. cos haven been running for so long le.. Haiz.. shld have change the date earlier lor.. need to do it by yday den can.. haha.. too late.. no choice hav to take le.. Just try my best ba..

Go for Ippt means cant pei her go Bugis liao.. Sianz... mayb see her tonight ba if she can make it.. hmm.. meeting my army frens after the Ippt.. Dunno wat they intend to do.. we shall see.. haha..

Miss everyone alot...

Og outing yday.. 30 plus ppl went, which is abt the whole group le.. lol.. so nan de sia.. cos i think tis is the first time i went tis kind of outing with nearly the full strength..hmm.. went Marine Square MOF to hav dinner.. order the miso char siew ramen.. yucks.. i think veri nan chi lor.. sian.. after dinner went to catch a movie.. X files.. turn out not tat nice show after all. some parts i really cant figure out wat the show talking abt.. haha

hmm.. visit my work place.. Great Eastern.. seeing those familiar faces really make me feel kind of miss them alot lor.. Had been working there for around 7 months le.. kind of bu she de the place liao.. next wk most likely meeting them for dinner.. haha.. can listen to gossips again.. so happy.. LOL..

Never get to see the person i want see the most.. can only think of her now and then.. just see her blog.. wah.. she turning to a greedy fat pig liao..haha.. cant stop eating.. got a shock by wat she say she just eat lo.. scary.. hmm.. hope she eat le must take care of herself.. dun fall sick lor.. drink more water PLS.... if need me to help u pour den u drink, i'll be more than willing to do so.. just scare i pour till u cant finish drinking.. haha..

Enjoy ur day in school ba.. Tired? den i help u massage.. bored? den msg me or talk to me.. hungry? den go find things to eat.. Mis me? den pls tell me.. hiak..

Too use to having each other

I shld be contented with things like that now.. able to stay by her side.. yet i am still giving her pressure, making her feel so miserable at times.. really so sorry..

Haiz... it hurt so much to hav leg cramps at nite.. just dunno y i keep having them.. suddenly wake up to feel such a strong surge of pain.. luckily is only one leg.. if not sure veri hard to walk the next day..

Chivas happening..

This is my freshman orientation camp group.. Chivas is so happening.. haha.. tml we will be having an outing le.. meetin 7pm at City Hall Mrt station.. shld be goin for dinner den after tat either movie, kbox or bowling.. hmm.. they all are very on sia.. like got so many ppl agree going le lo.. haha.. a bit surprise cos usually outing sure got alot ppl pangseh wan.. Hope tml will hav an interesting evening with them..

haha..accompany her and her mom for appt at SGH.. after tat went for tea break at Chinatown there.. Know abt the famous yong tao fu? haha.. we 3 person order 4 bowl lo.. yummy.. if anyone dunno where it is can ask me.. it's really a pity to miss out the delicious yong tao fu sia.. haha

Take my hand never let go..

Take my hand never let go.. have faith in yourself and me.. no matter wat ur decision lies.. i will always be here for u.. luv ya

Chio Bu..

haha... anyone admire i got such a beautiful gal with me? Too bad.. haha.. tis pretty "babe" is taken at Pattaya.. if anyone ever go there, remember to go see Alcazar show and Ah gogo.. u will get ur chance to be like me in the photo.. smiling so happily.. LOL.. hmm.. today is a special day of the month.. 21st.. Yup.. guess she will remember it ba.. after all we had spend so many 21st together.. hmm tis year she 21st years old too.. haha.. so qiao.. luckily her bday not on 21st too.. Yah.. so i still hope to wish her happy anniversary.. Take lotsa care.. =p

Back from camp!!

i'm back from my freshman orientation camp( FOC). had a nice experience over there, gettin to noe more ppl and had lots of fun.. turn out my sp to be quite a chio gal.. too bad she is a senior attached.. haha.. "freq lvl" too differnet le.. hmm.. enjoy tis cheer.. "neh mine neh mine, du lan du lan, bo chap bo chap", haha.. veri interesting one.. veri happy tat my og turns out to be the best og for the camp.. haha.. three cheers to ChiVas!!!

Is it Fate?

saw her today.. ver pretty as usual.. she goin to sing again.. kbox.. haha.. hope she enjoy herself.. hmm.. goin for orientation camp next wk.. a bit scare.. afterall i hate getting myself wet.. lol.. sure got alot of water games ones.. grr.. hope i will enjoy..hiak

A million sorries

Give me a chance to prove that i am someone u can rely on.. i will show to u tat i can change.. Wait for me.. Love you