Baby galz..

i will always be here for you if you need me...

All the best to you....

Good luck to your exams.... do well for it.. dun be so stressed...

hope that u are not sick le... coughing can be serious... but think u wun serious till cough till intestine bleeds ba... scary lor... sayang...

miss you...

Take care my girl...

haiz... always exams period u fall sick... please take gd care of yourself ba.. hope you recover soon and all the best to your exams...

Sadness

Whenever i am troubled, i know you will always be there whom can make me feel better... you share my happiness and sorrow.. but now...

it has been a while... i am feeling the loneliness... i have no one whom i can share my feelings le... Recently feeling troubled with so much things really make me feel so exhausted... Having so much things to say yet i cant bring myself to confide to others..

21 Nov...

Happy annivesary to the one i love... take care...

i'll just be an angel...

Silly girl.. do take gd care of yourself... hope u dun catch a cold...

To think that...

one can actually cough till intestine bleeds.. haiz...

And have i really become thinner? my dad says so...

To think that i dream...

and i cry...

i dunno wat my mind is thinking...

To be or not to be...

How to be...

Am i able to be...

So what i am to be...

Alone for good...

好想... 好想...

Lost

It is definitely so hard to forget someone that has been always there.. i try and try.. but every morning the first thing it comes to my mind is still her.. it makes my heart bleeds... it make my mind numb... i just want to cry yet i couldnt find tears.. i tell myself it's over le.. she no longer have the same feelings for me but i dunno why i still cant bear to let go... so what i love her so much? Can she feels it? Does she needs it?

All these years of friendship and love, i cant just leave it to become memories.. they are memories that leave me with so much of unwantedness... i longed to be with her... yet she has already given me up.. i asked myself every morning.. what exactly has happened? what caused the end of this relationship? i put the blame on myself.. i put the blame on her.. but in the end, the feeings i got is not guilty for not being gd enough for her or even hatred for her for giving me up. What i felt is always the heartbroken feeling.. the sadness.. the unbearable pain of losing someone.. it is such a terrible feeling that i have to force myself to bear with it... i wish i can cry out... i wish that cry will make me feel better even if it's just temporaily. But i cant cry.. i forced myself again and again... i just dun seem to be able to let out everything..

i dunno how many more mornings that i have to face with the same thoughts and feelings again... it is something that is unavoidable even if i wan to. i dunno how much longer i have to hold on even if i know i must..

i need to be alone.. i try to shut myself up... nv go sch.. nv study... nv bother abt those who have been concern abt me.. bing qiang called and msg alot of times... jl called me as well... but i just told them that i need to be alone.. i dun think i am able to face them for now... cos everytime i see them, i may not be able to hold back my feelings and start to tell them abt my sadness. All these only caused them to feel worried abt me.. i really need to learn to keep my feelings to myself... No point adding to another person's misery since it's my problem...

i guess... i will be all right soon...

haiz

i am truly hurt... but wish you all the best...

Dun feel well

need to be left alone....

ARGH.........

I HATE MYSELF.... I HATE MYSELF... I REALLY HATE MYSELF!!!

Day 2

Headache... i need sleep.. shld take a break le..

Day 1

Eating is definitely a gd way to run away from problems... but dun overeat till feel like puking... it just feel terrible...

guess i am holding back...Yet...some things are already beyond my grasp... hope you are happy now..

haiz... i'm lost...

heartbroken...

i always thought that i can give her the best.. but after so many years together i know she no longer need me now le.. she have learnt to lead a life without me.. it's really time that i let her go even if i got so much of unwillingness... so much of feelings left for her... so much of wanting her to be my side..

Thinking back, i really dunno wat i have done for her... how often i have her happy.. it's just like she is actually suffering more than she is being happy... i dun seem to have done enough for her..
i am just not gd enough for her...

All the years of love suddenly need to change to friendship.. i dunno how to accept it yet... i know i still love her alot.. i still care for her alot.. i shld stay by her side.. to be there for her when she needs me.. but how am i suppose to face her? it just need alot of time for me to heal... wat shld i do?

Promises are meant to be kept and fulfill... i tot i can keep my promise that i will love her forever but i guess i wun have the chance anymore...

i love you too much to make you stay... baby fly away...

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i dunno how long i can hold on...

Am i becoming less significant to you? ya still need me anot? i want the ans...