Probabilty And Stas... Java programming....

Today earlier in the morning dunno wat got into me... so nan de i nv play games and study lor.. haiz.. but i feel i am so weak in all my subjects... i am really trying very hard to study le... dun think too much den shld be quite ok ba i hope... haiz... hmmm.. if like that carry on also dunno how badly i will do in my exams.. Sianz...

Sighz.....

Hungry... wan to eat alot of things but like no appetite... haiz..

think falling sick soon..

I am losing myself...

If only i lose all my memories.. i will surely have feel better.. Forget all my unhappiness and start everythin afresh... I may forget you.. forget the happy memories that i have wih you.... forget that i once love you so much till i dunno wat i am becoming... but at least i noe u will hav feel better.. after all u wun be tight down by me.. u will hav the chance to be totally single again....

Happy Birthday dear...

A choc fudge cake from Angie the Choice, with the word "choc fudge" on it instead of Happy Birhtday to you... (and to realise how much i dunno abt you when i tot i know..)

A bouquet of 20 roses, 20 roses represent sincerity and 21 represent being committed to you... ( only 20 roses to you as the last one is myself..)

A beautiful sight of candles light on the carpark... (with the help of everyone to form the word HAPPY BDAY FEL..)

A cross stitched present, framed up and showing HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY to you.. (which i dunno spend how many hours doing.. somethin that i guess i wun do it again..)

A birthday card, which i think is really very nice and suitable for you.. (and of cos inside is full of rubbish that i hav written for you ba..)

Yup.... that is all for you for ur 21st birthday.. a day i hope u will never forget...

Sighz.....

Start of another wk in sch.... Sigh... this is already the fourth wk le but i still dunno wat i am doing.... i feel so lost in my studies.. i am so inferior in front of my frens... seem like they have already adapt to studying le and coping well with it, yet i am still far from that.... Am i putting enough effort in my studies? i doubt so... Haiz...

It always affect me so much whenever u are sick... i really dunno y i feel tis way even if i know it's just common flu, cough or sore throat... i feel so sad and angry with myself.. i have not been taking good care of you... haiz...

Haven been slping well lately... guess it will be over after tonight.... sigh...

Firework display..

Yesterday meet my GE colleagues again... so nice seeing them lor.. we went to Sizzler at Suntec.. Had a wonderful dinner with them... but feel so bad everytime they pay for me lor...

Went to see the fireworks display at esplanade... it is really veri nice.. hope can see it again next time... meet Li Juan and her kor.. haha.. turn out the kor not bad lor... too bad Li Juan dun like leh... she looking for one who ride a bike and can play piano.. lol.. oops.. i say too much..

hope u have a wonderful time at ur fren birthday party.. take care of urself lor...

Dun wan study...

Only got one lesson today cos sch having union day today.. super slack..

hmm.. dunno how to do my homework.. sianz.. i need help.. How come my free tutor not online? jialat le lor.. i very stupid...

hmmm.. hope everythin turns out well..

Unexpected visit..

is tat really her main reason for coming to ntu today?

but i am really very happy to see her... thanks for coming..

Thanks for being there....

I am really glad that there is a group of frens whom i can discuss my sch work with...Bing Qiang, Weiliang, Yong Ann, Jun Wei and Yun Sheun( dunno spell correctly anot)... i am going to need alot of help from them, esp from Bing Qiang.. He has really been a great help all this while.. if not for him i am surely lost now...

Workload is going to pile up very soon.. i must really study hard now.. hope i can have ur support.. and of cos ur care and concern... pls....?

But u must really take care of urself k? haiz... worried for you.. dun be too stressed up.. if got any problems must share with me lor.. dun keep to urself... even though i may not be able to solve ur prob, i believe i can at least make u feel better in a way ba..

Hope ur head is not painful le.. and hope u dun feel itchness le lor... Take lotsa care..

dun feel like goin anyway

dun feel like going out today. so stay at home to try finish up my work and her present.. yup..

so sorry nv go meet u all, my gd army frens.. hope u all dun mind.. next time ba.. although it may be quite long after but i believe we will meet sooner or later.. take care melvin.. hope u hav a gd time studyin overseas..

Falling sick

It looks like my cough is coming back again.. sianz

Lost...

i dunno where i am standing.. i dare not think too much..

My new laptop

Finally.. after so long got my first laptop le.. Toshiba protege M800.. same as hers but different color.. hers is cool pearl white while mine is mercury silver..

hmmm.. its so nice to hav a laptop lor.. hope i can learn more things now.. really need to chiong to do well in my studies.. hmm.. sad thing is i dun hav wireless connection lor.. its so complicated.. must think of a way now...

I am contented for now..

Still very lousy at driving lor.. can anyone tell me wat to do when i am making a turn? i still dunno the correct way..todday i learn parking.. hmm.. it seem quite complicated le.. hope after a few more lesson i can make it.. sian lor.. i am not gd at driving sia.. also dunno wat to do..

hmm.. i am really very happy whenever i am with her.. just dunno y i need her so much to be by my side.. she is gd to me now.. so much better.. i really hope it stay like this.. or even better... i dunno wat she's feeling now.. but i am still waiting.. i believe in her and i hope she believe in me too.. Luv ya..

Nv slp well..

Yday she bu shuang me.. it's my fault... haiz..

Dream abt her.. a weird dream.. hiak

Sch started le... hols are all over... so dreadful...

Pls take good care...=(

Mis ya alot.. tat's all i hav to say.. yup

My New Phone....

Bought a new phone yesterday.. Samsung F480.. one of the latest 3G phone.. it is a touch screen phone, meaning everythin is done by touching screen.. hmm.. i sure cant used to msging like tat but nvm.. i will try my best to learn.. haha.. the phone is quite cool lor.. 5 megapixel camera with a gd music player.. tis is wat i want lor.. hiak.. hope she like it too.. just dunno y i buy wat also will think of how she feel one.. haha.. $348.. hope it's worth it.. =)

Cute Yuan Shan

My cousin's daughter.. isn't she adorable? =)

Not used to it..

Just haven really adapt to uni life lor.. sian.. like so bored every day.. tis whole wk only got lectures but i already feel very tired.. hmm.. really haven get use to it..

i hope you can stay by my side.. take my hand and never let go... =p

For You

i just want to be with her.. tat's all... i dun wan her to be so stressed up... cheer up!!!! pls smile to me more...

I have done my best..

Ya.. i am really bu gan xin over everythin.. i just dun see ourselves with so much differences..
After so much i have say to you.. u actually say that u dun really have to listen to wat others say.. it breaks my heart...

i have done my best..

I am diggin my own grave..

when two person get together, learn to compromise is somethin tat is unavoidable.. no matter if it is accepting who the person is or even change for each other's sake.. it's still somethin tat one shld do.. there's no leopard that cant change its spots lor.. it's just whether u are willing anot.. i am really trying my very best to accept the way u are and even change for the better for ur sake.. but y cant u do the same for me? y must u think tat leopard cant change its spots, so u cant also..

haiz.. i know i am in no position to decide who she wan to go out with.. but she really make me so worried just now.. msg and call her many times yet she nv reply.. turns out she go watch movie which shld be consider scary movie tat she usually dun watch, and sit on the front row seats which she usually dun like.. haiz.. of cos i will be so angry with her.. i am thinkin whether she care abt my feelings tis way..

i shld give her more time to think.. yup.. she says i am always around giving her no time to think abt it..but this is somethin i also dun wan one..i am really scare next time wun hav so much time to be by her side le.. haiz.. i am really in a dilemma.. so is it tat i shld stay close by her side to let her know i am there waitng for her, or shld i stay away from her so tat she can feel the importance of my presence?

i shouted at her.. it really break my heart.. i dun mean it.. sorry..

Cinderella's story

Yday nv blog cos din noe that i will end up going clubbing at Clarke Quay... First time went to MOS.. haha.. tried tequila shot and tequila pop tis time.. wah.. i nv feel like head spinning lor.. seemed like i still can drink.. not so bad..

Dance for quite a long time.. at least a few hrs i think... dun really noe how to dance at first.. but after a while, still managed to dance a bit ba.. a little improvement.. haha.. luckily got the chance to dance with someone so pretty and sweet.. she's not a bad dancer by the way.. she dance till quite nice.. and she seemed quite high.. too bad she complained nv get to hear her fav song " LOW ".. i sing for her lah.. she wan can dance wih my music..

"Shawty had them Apple Bottom Jeans [Jeans]... Boots with the fur [With the fur]... The whole club was lookin at her... She hit the flo [She hit the flo]... Next thing you know... Shawty got low low low low low low low low... Them baggy sweat pants... And the Reeboks with the straps [With the straps]... She turned around and gave that big booty a smack [Ayy]... She hit the flo [She hit the flo]... Next thing you know... Shawty got low low low low low low low low"

haha.. happy? hmm.. enjoy ur dance.. next time can ask me out to dance again.. haha..

Cinderella"s story end at 12 midnight.. mine is much better le.. end at 4am.. haha.. it's so nice to be with a loving dancer partner.. too bad gd thing always come to an end... how i wish time can stop so tat everythin will not end so quickly..

Hmm... wonder when can i be in a cinderella's story again?? i'm really lookin forward to it..

Poor Thing..

I hate when she is not feeling well.. keep having headache is really not a gd sign lor.. if only i can help her suffer in her place..

hmm.. think i am still not veri gd in my driving.. today revise on the 3 point turning.. ok lah.. better den the previous lesson but still not as gd as i think i can be.. just need try harder ba..