Just as you have said..
time passed.. though memories still remember no matter how vague it is.. but I have learnt to let go since then.. After struggling for so long after that time, I realize how things are.. I nv blame you and dun push all the guilt to you.. What happen had happened.. and I am in wrong too.. I am just not gd enough to you.. I tot i can be a better person now but guess i am reverting back to my old self.. The way i look into relationships isnt the way I used to be... Maybe this had been wat you are going thr at that time.. after all they say girls mature earlier than guys...
Now just hope that you are happy with him.. and for me. just hope that mine will turn out good too.. I still have a long way to go.. but you are different.. if he is the one, dun make the mistake of behaving like a girl le k? girls' emotioanal feelings are hard to control.. guess you are having problems with him too.. but nvm.. trust yourself and him.. once this phrase of life is over, you can be with him happily le.. think you know wat i meant..
all the best to you.. and jiayou!! =)
May 21, 2011
I get to know two girls at work.. One same age as me.. the other age 20.. Though we are always at loggerheads, I feel that they are very nice girls.. I can be myself when I am with them.. just like how I talk with my uni frens, or even with my best frens they all.. And truthfully, I enjoy chit chat with them cos it just seems like back in the secondary sch time. Able to talk like pretended 'enemies' and 'lovers'... the kind of ai mei de way..
But I nv harbour thought of liking them.. But why are girls always sensitive to this issue? She can say if I care about her feelings I wun be doing so, but in the first place if she truly trust me, how will she be feeling this way? Cant I choose my own frens and decide how I wan to treat them?
And why must there be a comparison when it comes to who I am treating better? Can frens and girlfriend be compared in this way? How comes she cannot understand this? I just like to be who I am when I am with my frens.. honestly speaking, I am a smooth talker in front of the girls.. I like to talk to them as if we are being lovers.. I like the ai mei style.. I feel that they are 'better' frens to me in this way.. I feel closer to them in a more friendly way.. Is it wrong?!!! maybe I giving a wrong impression in this way but where is the trust that I needed? I nv done anything wrong.. just being nice to my frens.. y must she end up comparing again? Y must she be thinking so much??? Y must she feel the way that I may betray her anytime?!!!
I am a victim in this situation before.. dun I understand what the feeling like... dun sound as if I deliberately do this kind of things... I am not harbouring any other feelings except just friendship!!! Can it be get across to her?? can she understand I am this kind of person???
I really dunno how long more I can take it.. I am feeling really very exhausted now..
But I nv harbour thought of liking them.. But why are girls always sensitive to this issue? She can say if I care about her feelings I wun be doing so, but in the first place if she truly trust me, how will she be feeling this way? Cant I choose my own frens and decide how I wan to treat them?
And why must there be a comparison when it comes to who I am treating better? Can frens and girlfriend be compared in this way? How comes she cannot understand this? I just like to be who I am when I am with my frens.. honestly speaking, I am a smooth talker in front of the girls.. I like to talk to them as if we are being lovers.. I like the ai mei style.. I feel that they are 'better' frens to me in this way.. I feel closer to them in a more friendly way.. Is it wrong?!!! maybe I giving a wrong impression in this way but where is the trust that I needed? I nv done anything wrong.. just being nice to my frens.. y must she end up comparing again? Y must she be thinking so much??? Y must she feel the way that I may betray her anytime?!!!
I am a victim in this situation before.. dun I understand what the feeling like... dun sound as if I deliberately do this kind of things... I am not harbouring any other feelings except just friendship!!! Can it be get across to her?? can she understand I am this kind of person???
I really dunno how long more I can take it.. I am feeling really very exhausted now..
January 18, 2011
Stepping into a cross junction..
Everything just seems to be so far far apart..
Asking myself if it is right to hold on..
How sure am I towards my own feelings?
Has it becomes just mere friendship?
Or am I still feeling love for you..
Why must quarrels keep crossing our paths?
How sure am I towards our future..
Wishing you to be happy day by day..
Yet bringing sorrow to you time by time..
Is it true that once broken it cant be mend?
or just that wound heal longer than what we think..
Everything just seems to be so far far apart..
Asking myself if it is right to hold on..
How sure am I towards my own feelings?
Has it becomes just mere friendship?
Or am I still feeling love for you..
Why must quarrels keep crossing our paths?
How sure am I towards our future..
Wishing you to be happy day by day..
Yet bringing sorrow to you time by time..
Is it true that once broken it cant be mend?
or just that wound heal longer than what we think..
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